Yasmeen's mystery suicide

انتحار مواطنة بظروف غامضة في مشرف


كتب المحرر الأمني: اقدمت مواطنة 19 عاما على الانتحار في ظروف غامضة يجري التحقيق بشأنها داخل منزلها الكائن بمنطقة مشرف.

وقائع القضية حصلت امس عندما انتاب الخوف افراد الاسرة من فقدان ابنتهم وراحوا يبحثون عنها في ارجاء المنزل فوجدوها معلقة بحبل في دورة مياه غرفتها وابلاغ غرفة عمليات الداخلية فتوجه عناصر الامن الى موقع البلاغ وتم استدعاء الادلة الجنائية وتمت معاينة موقع الحادث وجرى انزال الجثة وسجلت الواقعة.

حضر في مكان الجريمة العميد يحيى الصالح مدير امن حولي والعقيد حماد العنزي والمقدم عدنان الفرج والرقيب اول جعفر البلوشي.

A beginning of a new era? Or is this something we see in this society and hush up? She was 19 and  didn't really START her life yet. Was she afraid? Is she happy with what she did? Did her friends know but didn't say anything? Did her parents treat her like shit? Was the "suicide" code for the real crime? Was there something wrong with her brain? Or did she simply find life pointless and decide better now than later? I always have more questions than I do answers.

Research estimates 1/10 teenagers think about killing themselves and 1/10 actually succeed in doing so.

I took my finals sitting next to her. Sometimes I would look up and see her get up to give the test back to the teacher and leave. Every morning for two weeks: glasses,  school uniform, HER. she was RIGHT THERE. Maybe I could have done something. Maybe we all could have done something. Could she not see the people around her that could have helped her? Or were the cripples in this scenario? We are the broken code. WHAT AM I THINKING? Of course she felt alone. No one could have helped her if she wasn't willing to help herself. The only thing she helped herself in was killing herself. Maybe that brought real peace, or maybe it was slow and painful. 

What are her parents going through right now? Their daughter died before they did. Over something that might have been their fault, or something they couldn't see (or chose not to see) something right there in front of them. Did she eat? What was the last meal? Who was the last person she talked to? What was the last thing she said to them? What was her last thought? Was it  useful thought? Was it a bad conversation? What were her beliefs of the after life? Did god speak to her, or was he mad, too?

Smile to that stranger walking by (7tn low kan heligy) it could be their last day, and maybe that smile can change their minds. Life isn't scary, it's people who turn it into this dirty place. Someone from the dorms here told me "Too bad you don't have any friends here, I can't KUwait for you to go back home." Minus the joke being the lamest thing on the planet, it got me sad. I had to leave the room. I don't have much to rely on here, my whole life is in Kuwait, and I will never have anything similar to it here. Did he not understand? I don't think he does, because he doesn't look like he even had a passport, let alone left the Midwest. is he an idiot for saying something like this to a hyper-sensitive girl coming here and living alone? I could have said "AmeriCAN you be any more of an ass hole?" But i didn't, I just left, he wasn't worth a lesson on racism.

"Oh, it happens a lot here" said a person (almost shrugging!) I'd talked to about here, another girl told me how her friend's mother killed herself the day after her daughter's prom. That's really unfortunate, and I hope she raised a daughter to be the next Feminist who revolutionizes her country to something extraordinary.

 Depression runs deep. It's like everyone around you is beaming with joy, living life, running around to get things done, partying with friends, shopping with their cool moms, and looking  fabulous. These perceptions of others (whether real or imagined) internalize and reduce your self-worth to virtually nothing.

Can Yasmeen's parents even walk in that bathroom now? Yasmeen, I hope you feel like you made the right choice, and I'm sorry you had to go through it.